Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Caveat Empty (the refrigerator)

I believe we all need to empty our refrigerators from time to time. You know, there could be something rotting in there (don't judge - you know this has happened to you). I don't believe we need to do this daily - yes, we need to eat, but not the way I have been doing lately.

I started this blog to talk about weight loss issues - my issues and how I overcame them to lose a whopping 50 lbs. in 9 months! Well, lately, I have been on all sorts of plateaus. Today, I am proud of myself, because an obnoxious response from someone in my office could have caused me to head straight to the deli to get something sinful to eat, but I didn't. For some odd reason, I tend to forget that I purchased a very delicious box of Chocolate Mint Vita Tops a while back. This is good, since, if I remembered this every day, I could end up eating the whole box - yeah, that would be 2,400 calories in one sitting - is that still low in points with all the fiber I'd be consuming? (each one has like 6 grams of fiber and only 100 calories). No, silly - that would be one day of points and then I might look like a walking Vita Top. Look, they are very nice looking, but I didn't start a diet to look like a chocolate muffin top, which would happen if I did this very thing. I could imagine walking down the street - people would say, what a pretty chocolate muffin top! OK, I am waking up from this ridiculous dream.

I know I am getting off topic here... my point is I want to be able to get back to what prevents me from the success I initially achieved. 2009 has been quite an emotional year. The poor economy in the U.S. finally hit my company, and in March, we learned that our salaries would be cut by 10%. At first, it did not bother me too much. As time went on, it began to, and my eating issues followed. I wish I did not let stuff like this bother me. Of course, I am only human and I know I can't escape it.

How do I get my focus back? Do I need to attend WW meetings again? Maybe. I recently felt that I could do this myself. I could follow my points program without attending meetings. It doesn't seem like that is working.

OK, I am making a new plan. I am committing to attending at least one meeting by the end of next week. If I do that, I can stick to it. They always say you have to try something once, and you will know if you really want to do it. I want to lose more weight. I don't want to get back to my former size. I hated it. I love fitting into the size I am now (and it doesn't hurt that I am getting a gift from a pal who I helped with her office transition - a $250 pair of jeans from her company in my current size!). Don't want to screw that up! Keep up with the blog to see how I do!